Just A Bump In The Road

The first day of March. The month when many of us see signs of spring emerge. And more birds chirping in the trees.

I'm sorry I frightened so many of you yesterday. It was not my intention. I think sometimes I am just "too real."

My Etsy owner friend Judy came over yesterday afternoon and took me to see my regular doctor. He said he would get me a referral to a psychiatrist. I just felt better going to someone I knew at least somewhat. It may take a little while, as psychiatrists are scarce. But he said hopefully within a week.

I have read and reread what all of you must have seen. And still, I don't see it. It must be due to something I don't understand; something that is clouding my judgment. 

Kind of reminds me of this photo I took. You can see the tree branch quite clearly, the bud opened up. But in the background, there are shadowed images. There, but not clear. That's how I feel right now, I guess. To explain it the best I know how.

Our brains are remarkable. Far more complex than a computer, I'd think. When something goes awry, we can't see it, so we don't know how to fix it. 

I know what's going on isn't "normal." That I can be perfectly fine one minute, and then a shaky crying mess is a befuddling phenomenon. I try to gain control of it, but it seems just beyond my reach. 

And I guess that truly says it all: It is beyond my reach. So I will have to rely on someone with the proper training to guide me out of this place. And I will do that. 

Judy, from 20 Northora, though she's known me such a short time, has proved to be an invaluable friend. She was there for me when I had a panic attack in Office Depot last week. And calmly took charge. 

She's very calming and insightful when it comes to knowing what to say and do in puzzling, embarrassing situations. She is a wonder to me. Someone I aspire to be more like. If I had to come up with one word for her, it would be: Nurturing. And I am ever so thankful that she was sent to me when I needed someone so. 

She has helped me set up an Etsy shop, and I am helping her to set up a blog. Just the way women tend to help one another. Trading skill set for skill set. 

This is just a rough patch in the road of life. My thoughts are not as clear as I'd like them to be. But I'll get it all figured out. I always seem to somehow land on my feet.

So thank you for your continuing support and kind emails. 

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