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Dreams & Flowers & Andrew's First Hair Cut


Here is what color the bloom was I mentioned a few days ago. It is a peachy orange cone flower. 



I've had a couple of really bad nights since the biopsies. One was last night. I woke up every few hours in pain. Yes, dryness alone can cause acute pain. But dryness coupled with the pain from the shots and the biopsies make that pain worse.

I'm exhausted today. But since I can't sit and have to lie in bed anyway, I suppose I'll get the rest I need, certainly.

Before I even had the procedure, this would happen. So I'm very anxious to know what this is so that I might get some relief.


Do you ever have dreams that seem so real that your emotions see-saw throughout the dream? I had one of those last night. 

I can recall the emotional pain I felt, the loss. It was in reference to my ex husband, and we've been divorced nearly four years now. So I wouldn't think I'd have residual feelings that result in dreams.

But really, how do we know what causes dreams to occur, and what they're going to relate to and why? I know I don't. I find it puzzling, however, that I truly don't feel this way. But I did in the dream. 

It was the kind of fear that takes your breath away, for it is so unexpected. It was the rawness of how I felt over four years ago when the truth became known to me. I wonder if it is unresolved feelings? Or just the serendipity of dreams? 

Do you have dreams about severed relationships years down the road?


So much of life is a mystery. Even the dreams we have during sleep. Mine are usually hodge-podged together of different sequences in my life. Like a puzzle with varied pieces.

For instance, including people who don't even know one another, but do in the dream. People you knew from different times and places.


I do want to thank all of you who have contributed to Doreen's GoFundMe account for me and the pupsters. Too bad the person/persons that hijacked my URL and thus stole my traffic does not have to do restitution for the financial damage they caused me. 

Bloggers talk about their sites being scraped, which means their content is stolen. But after this, I know I'd much rather have my content scraped than my URL hijacked and my traffic diverted to their account. Because it affected my income so drastically 

I suppose if I didn't love this blogging thing, if it wasn't such an integral part of my life, I might have just thrown in the towel. But I didn't do that when I lost three and a half years of posts two years ago. And that was a pretty hard thing to swallow. 

So I guess I'm in it for the long haul. For the friendships I've formed over the years. 

So, I thank you for caring.



I just got this email, and the photo isn't very big, but I just had to show you. Andrew's first hair cut. How I love that boy!



Well, she just sent me another of Andrew at the splash park. I've got to get well and go see that child!
Cozy Little House
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  1. I love analyzing my dreams. I had a couple of doozies the other night and Steve and I talked about them trying to figure out what they meant. I can always help him with his and explain why certain places/people were in his dreams that night.

    Hope you have a good day.

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  2. oh my just look at him in the chair...I want to squeeze his little cheeks. So adorable! When I remember my dreams I try to figure them out a bit but most are confusing. Perhaps the subconscios was trying to put a picture of emotional pain on to the physical pain that you were going through when trying to sleep. Who knows. I remember as a kid learning all of these Bible stories thinking in that most of them God or Angels actually appeared to people in the O.T. Stories. Later when older and reading the Bible it dawned on me that almost every message to people was in a dream! Evidently theirs were clearer than most of ours! :)

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  3. it would be nice if I could spell, huh. Subconscious. Anyway I just remembered one from the other night. It had some weird long word in it. Not a real word but in the dream I was also thinking to myself "I have to remember this word and figure out what the message is". Naturally in the morning I remembered that there was a dream with a weird word but I could not recall the word no matter how hard I tried. Ugh!

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  4. I've always thought of dreams as a whole other life...where I'm working out what's going on in real life. Although, I guess dreams are real life, too...
    Andrew is adorable! Hope you feel better and get to see him soon!

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  5. Hi Brenda! Oh, your little man is so adorable and I can see he loves the water! I'm sorry you're still in such pain. Are you trying to do too much? Just try and take it easy. I know that's hard to do sometimes. Dreams...I have my share of them and like you, have had some that scare me or some that make me be embarrassed! :) Sometimes I can figure out why I've dreamed what I did but most of the time I can't! Feel better soon.
    Be a sweetie,
    Shelia ;)

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  6. Oh, I do hope you get well soon, Brenda! And then I hope your fund grows and grows and allows you to live a more secure life.

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  7. Andrew is adorable!! Sorry you are still so uncomfortable, I hope you start to feel better very soon. I still have dreams about my ex and he divorced me 8 years ago, but having 3 kids together means I still have a connection to him and unfortunately, have to see him sometimes. In some of the dreams we are still together and I hate those dreams so much! I don't understand them, because I definitely don't have any feelings (other than hatred) toward him, so why do I dream that we are together? I guess when someone is in your life for over 30 years it is impossible to not dream about them. I wonder if our ex's dream about us? Take care Brenda!

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  8. What a cutie, hope he has good memories of his first hair cut, I sure didn't pretty dramatic!

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  9. So sorry your are still having such pain. I know you will rest as much as possible. What a cutie your Grandson is. I remember Tiger's first haircut!
    hugs,
    Linda

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  10. Brenda, my thoughts and prayers have been with you and will continue to be with you. You are so important to many of us and I pray that your health is better and income recovered soon. Your grandson is adorable and thank you for sharing him with us. Feel better soon!!!

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  11. Your gofundme icon has disappeared..can it be replaced? Also, has your traffic now improved? I have always just clicked your blog on my bookmarks or in my email, and never been taken elsewhere. I hope that you feel better very soon!

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  12. The picture of Andrew in the barber chair is priceless. He's getting to be such a little man. I know you miss seeing him. It looks like he's having a big time at the water park.
    Right after my Dad died, I had a dream that I was working in my garden .I could see my Dad walking around the side of our house.........the sunlight was behind him.........and I could see him and hear his voice just like it was real life.. All of my dreams are in color and very real...........some, I don't know why I dream at all.
    I hope the coming week will bring relief of the pain you're experiencing. Thinking of you !
    Charlotte

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  13. Oh my goodness! Little Mr. Andrew looks so grownup getting his hair cut and playing at the splash park! What a sweetheart!

    I hope and pray that you feel better very soon and that you get some answers regarding that painful condition. Enjoy your Sunday afternoon with the pupsters!

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  14. That flower is the most gorgeous color!

    Brenda, I hope you get some major relief very soon.

    Your grandson looks like he's having a lot of fun splashing around. I bet you wish you could stand over one of those water spouts about now.

    Sometimes my dreams are exhausting. I wake up more tired than when I went to bed. I tend to have very vivid dreams. At least once, I've woken weeping from a dream. I forget what it was about, but I awoke weeping and feeling like my heart had broken.

    In my family I am famous for my crazy dreams. Everything from talking clams and Saint Peter to Liberace being our neighbor. Being in prison and having the in-the-prison parts in black-and-white and the outside through the prison windows being in blazing color. Being evacuated due to a nuclear blast but refusing to go without my pets. I could go on and on.

    I hate having dreams that I am using the bathroom in. I figure it's just a matter of time till I actually wet the bed during such a dream. lol

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  15. I think many dreams have some sort of meaning. Perhaps this one was brought on by your financial anxiety, which of course he originally created ... Andrew is a cutie for sure. I hope you feel better and soon.

    Mary

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  16. I tried to send a message a few minutes ago but it disappeard....I am sad that you are suffering so much, and I pray daily that you will soon feel better! Andrew is so adorable and I hope that you will be able soon to see him. He needs his grandma in his life! I have crazy dreams too and I think that is caused by the pain meds that I have to take each day. Blessings, Carolyn in Florida

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  17. Brenda,
    They say dreams are our subconcsious thoughts and fear etc. that we have not resolved so maybe you did not resolve all those feelings from years ago. What a cute that little guy is getting his first hair cut. Tooo adorable. Hope your doctor calls you with the results of your biopsies and maybe something to give you some relief. Thinking healing thoughts for you.
    Kris

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  18. HI Brenda... OK this is at LEAST the 5th time I have TRIED to comment! I'm going to send this and see if it will go thru! Heavens to Betsy! LOL!

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  19. Your grandson is a doll. I hope your pain subsides soon, soon. It's hard being a girl, huh?!
    Sheila

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  20. Dreams are so much fun. Mine are usually a mixture of the past and present, people I know, others I don't, intrigue, trips to Mexico with policemen I never met before... LOL I absolutely love my dreams, unless I eat ice cream before going to bed and then for some reason I have nightmares.

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  21. Hope you are feeling better soon and get relief when answers from bioposies are available to you! Andrew is a handsome little guy!! Dreams are wierd.....I have a lot of them. My husband has even woke me up because I was so upset. Unfortunately I remember most of my dreams. Freud could have a hey-day with me, I'm sure!

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  22. Alrighty then! I'm back! GEESH! Ok.... I am so sorry you continue to feel this horrible pain ! Plus you are all alone! I know EXACTLY how this feels! Every time you need something you have to do it yourself. It gets exhausting! I KNOW!!! I wish more than anything I could physically help you ! But since I cannot physically be there... I have come up with another idea to help you. I made a donation to the Go Fund Me account when Doreen first opened it for you! I am so darn happy to see it continues to grow! It looks like we have your rent covered for several months. But what happens when that is gone? You are back to where you started. A very limited income. SO!!!!!! This next part of this comment is for all the ladies who are readers of your blog! LADIES!!! we need 125 women to COMMIT to a $5.00 donation MONTHLY ! $5.00 is all !!!! 125 women to cover her rent for as long as she needs our help! I made my monthly commitment about an hour ago! Who else is on board with me! I cant stand to see Brenda struggle financially like she does every day! Every day is a worry for her. I am a widow. NOT a rich widow whatsoever... but I WILL help Brenda. Period. None of us want to see this happen to her. She has had more heart break in her life then anyone should. My heart breaks for her. I can give up something every month in order to help her. Who is on board with me? If you only have a dollar to spare that's ok! Just please donate what you can monthly. She is going to encounter medical bills now after this last procedure. I can just imagine the anxiety this brings her while trying to recover from it. So lets all show her how much her readers care and please donate monthly ! Thanks ladies!!!
    Mary Jane

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    1. Thanks for reminding readers that Brenda is not out of the woods yet. As you pointed out if many contribute the amount per person can be small. Many spend five dollars on a fast food hamburger. Giving up one per month and donating that amount could give Brenda so much peace.

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    2. Hi Diane! I really hope we can get 125 or MORE ladies that can help Brenda!
      I cant even imagine what she pays monthly for her meds. And her pupsters are on expensive special dog food. I went thru that with my cocker. Its not cheap. I just feel a deep desire to lighten the load for Brenda. She is in a hard place.



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    3. I'm in. $5 is nothing to help this wonderful lady.

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    4. I'm in for 10 hamburgers a month!

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  23. That cone-flower is so pretty Brenda..they have come up with such pretty new varieties of these lately but I still enjoy the purple ones too..Little Andrew is such an adorable guy..I can imagine how much you want to see him again..Those splash parks are such fun when the water squirts up and surprises the kids..he looks like he is having the best time..I miss my son being that age..I wish I would not have dreams..usually the are not pleasant for me..most involve old boyfriends or my ex-husband..they are dead now so I would much prefer that they don't come by for a visit..lol..Take care girl..and keep your two tiny best friends close to you..

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  24. So sorry you are still in pain physically and maybe emotionally because of your telling dream. I am a big dreamer and often have just horrible dreams. Loss of any kind can stay with you for so long and even if I think the pain is long gone it comes for me at night. But sometimes I get dreams that are pure gifts. They are so realistic and I see people that are long gone. Many times they are so much younger than I remember them being. I do get very emotional and the initial pain of them leaving hits me hard once again.

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  25. Oh my goodness! I don't even know Andrew and I love him!! What a doll!

    Dreams have always fascinated me. I have found when I google whatever it is that stood out in the dream, the analysis is usually spot on. It is said that the people in our dreams are representative of ourselves. Not sure if that's true, but it's an interesting thought. To answer your question, yes, I often have dreams that include people from long ago. Sometimes they were people that were important to me and I still think of from time to time, but sometimes I'm left wondering why the hell they're in my dream!

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  26. Didnt you say once that your husbanduse to tell you that he pein was all in your head while having intercourse. Maybe that is what the dream is about. You are remembering those times. Plus all the other things that creep did/said to you.

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  27. You have beeb through so much, hope you get some relief soon. Your flower is so pretty, love that color! If I dream...I have no recollection of it. Maybe once or twice a year I will have some awareness that I dream. Your grandson is adorable, that just has to make your day.

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  28. Hi Brenda, Andrew is a little darling. So cute in his new hair cut and looks like he loves the water park too. So sorry you are having so much pain. I hope and pray for you to be pain free soon and feeling good. You got to go see your little man!!
    I often have dreams of times with loved ones that have passed on. I hope it means they are okay and doing fine. The dreams are always nice and the people very happy and healthy. Sometime I dream of my parents taking care of a garden.

    Wishing you a restful evening.
    Hugs, CM

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  29. Aww, Cutest pictures. Hold on. It will work out. I feel confident.

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  30. Andrew is just the sweetest!! Best medicine for sure! Feel better Brenda! Thinking of you.

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  31. Love the color of the mystery flower. I don't remember my dreams most of the time. When I do have a dream that scares me or causes some other strong emotion ,it takes me a while to get over it. Hate that! It is often like a cloud hanging over me until I can move on. Hope you feel up to visiting that precious boy soon!

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  32. I am 64 and yes I have dreams of the people I have known and loved and lost. Some of them are called family and others were friends. I have learned that I invest to much to quickly. I can be friendly and thankful but keep my emotional distance. I am just figuring out how to do this. I guess it would be possible at least I hope so. I cannot cope with more losses and life is full of those we can't control so I want to control those I can. Like I will give a little gift for a kindness or two shown to me. But not give my emotions. Maybe a little thank you card letting them know I am thankful for friendship. Trying to learn a new way or very soon I'll quit trying the friendship thing. More loss that I experience because they are friends and not family I cannot cope with. Family really just have to pray my way through it and for me it takes years. There are some that have passed on that treated me badly and they are in my dreams. I hate those dreams! I thought when they passed it would be over and for the most part it is.

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  33. Brenda, don't know if you remember me. I was a blogger too.
    I know longer blog, but I continue to read yours.
    I would luke to contribute to your gofund me account.
    can you send me the link.?

    Viola in California

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    1. Her icon seems to have vanished. You can go to house honeys blog and still find the link/icon.

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  34. Brenda, don't know if you remember me. I was a blogger too.
    I know longer blog, but I continue to read yours.
    I would luke to contribute to your gofund me account.
    can you send me the link.?

    Viola in California

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  35. I am so sorry to hear that you're still in pain after your procedure. I hope that they can give you a diagnosis and a cure for your ailment! Little Andrew is so cute. He will definitely help take your mind off your troubles.

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  36. Somehow I missed why you had the biopsies. Hope you're feeling better soon. Love those pics, the flowers are so pretty. I hardly ever remember my dreams, kind makes me mad!

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  37. He is so adorable! Love those photos of Andrew and the flowers. I do hope you feel better soon and that the pain subsides! I continue to dream about my former husband and it has been 11 years since he died. Crazy, but in just about all of the dreams we are arguing, just as we did in our marriage. I don't know what it means, but on those nights, rest never comes. Over the years, I've had dreams about my grandparents and they have been gone for quite some time. Take care and feel better soon!

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  38. Brenda, I have you in my prayers. My gosh, this female problem sounds just horrible. You deserve a break from all that is happening in your life right now. So many of us out here are trying to help as much as we can. Having said that, I am hesitant to ask you this...but I think you would want to know. On your Tweak It Tuesday....the description under each picture is such a light color it is really very difficult to read. Have any of your other readers had this problem? I normally read your blog on my tablet not a computer.

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  39. Brenda,
    You are always in my heart and prayers for your wellness, happiness and security.
    Andrew is a doll baby-love him!
    Well, I used to remember my dreams so much more than I do now, and I miss that I don't remember them! But if and when I do, they are about my family and the worries that I carry with me.
    xoxo
    Jemma

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  40. When I have dreams like yours I just try to let them go. The ones that really upset me are those that continue where they left off after you wake up and try to shake off the fear. It's like a whole sequence of nightmarish dreams.

    Andrew is so precious. I hope you get well soon so you can spend some time with him.

    Jane x

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  41. Andrew looks so grownup getting his first haircut, what a cute expression on his face. I hope you get well soon so you can visit him, such a cutie!

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  42. Lovely pictures of Andrew.

    Sending positive thoughts your way.

    All the best Jan

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  43. Andrew is such a doll! I hope you get to see him soon :)

    This is the first time in my whole life that I haven't had recurring dreams. I used have one where I was blind, but that ended about 4 years ago. Another one was where whoever I was with was cheating on me and didn't care that I knew. That one stopped happening over a year ago. I think that's a good sign for this guy ;)

    xo,
    rue

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  44. Drams are so interesting and provide an outlet for many of our emotions. Andrew is just adorable. Hope you get to see him again soon and that you get some relief from your pain. xo Laura

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  45. I have very strange dreams... I mean just weird and even a little disturbing. But they don't seem to be really "about" anything... I do dream about past relationships sometimes but not too much. I've been divorced from my last ex for 4 years now too, for some reason I thought you'd been divorced a lot longer... don't know why!

    I hope you're feeling better soon Brenda. It's been hot here too. Yesterday it was 105 degrees! Our weather report said we broke the 1948 record where on that day back then it was 101.

    Tania

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